I’ve noticed I’ve been getting in these moods lately where I just don’t feel like I’m as much as I was a few months ago. Like, I’m not pressing into God with the same fever that I was, I’m not as hungry for His Word as I was back then, and I’ve spent a lot of time praying for God to restore my attitude about it to what it once was. I’ve even written about it a few times. I’ve had days and moments where I feel I’m getting closer to that, but something happens to prevent me from maintaining that, and I’ll be honest- it’s pretty discouraging sometimes. I’ve fought quite the mental battle over why I just can’t seem to get back to that and keep it going.
I know a few people personally who have gone through great seasons of closeness and intimacy with the Lord and experienced an overwhelming of His presence, only to eventually go through a season of drought and feel a little lost and distant from Him. And so far, everyone I’ve had conversations with has asked to be restored to some form of a former condition. I’ve had a number of conversations with my boyfriend about this recently, and he’s admitted to feeling the same way. Yesterday, we prayed together again for us both to have our relationships with God restored to their former glories, so to speak. We realized how comfortable we’d gotten and essentially, how lazy.
I keep using the word “restore” for a reason. Everyone I’ve talked to has used this word “restore” in what they’ve asked God for… but after praying yesterday, this word was really bugging me. I decided that I’d just lay it all before God and I declared it out loud. And very suddenly, I had one of those moments where I was so overcome by this idea that if I didn’t blurt it out right that moment, I might explode. It weighed so heavy on my heart that I really felt like I was just shy of hearing His voice and I still can feel it physically. The phrase from NKJ translation of 2 Corinthians 3:18 “being transformed from glory to glory…” has echoed in my mind since then, and I just can’t help but seeing it as evidence that maybe we’re asking for the wrong thing.
In the NIV, it reads “And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” Through the power of the Holy Spirit, which the Lord is and has given to us, is constantly transforming us with EVER-INCREASING glory. Not former glory. We’re not moving backwards, even if we were in a good place before.
So why are we asking and constantly praying to be brought back to a former glory when He wants to transform us with a constantly increasing glory? I doubt a butterfly sits around asking to go back to being a caterpillar, no matter how good of a caterpillar it had been. I can’t help but believe that we should be praying for God to bring us the next level of glory that He promises in His Word. He would never move us backwards to reach the past-He promises a FUTURE, not a PAST (Jeremiah 29:11).
So let’s start looking in the right direction, huh?
Almighty God, no more am I asking You to bring me back to the place I was before. I thank You for that season, but now I’m asking for a revival that shakes the ground I walk on and raises the bar a few more notches. I don’t want to be who I WAS, even if I had a few of the right ideas. I want to be whoever You are making me-I want to be made into more of Your image than I’ve ever been. Transform me, God, from the last period of glory to the next. Increase all that You will, and remove all that keeps me from it. And I pray the same for anyone else who reads this prayer and feels the same, Lord. Bring them from their former glory, break the chains that attach us to that time of our lives and allows to be set free to take off at a dead sprint toward the greater hope You promise in the future. I lay it all before You, casting my cares on You, because I know You’ll care for me. I believe in Your promises, Lord. Have Your way in us and let You will be done. I pray this in the Holy Name of Jesus Christ, Amen.