I’m here for Day 9 of #samjyogaadvent on @samj_yoga, and today’s theme is LOOK.
One of my darkest, innermost struggles is one of shame, of feeling too broken, or too far gone. I often doubt that there’s anything left I can do within the Kingdom. I have even a fear of being seen and known by others because they might decided things about who I am as a person before really getting to know me and my heart. And honestly, it’s happened before in the Church (I can’t even blame anyone who does it because I do it to myself too).
And moving through Advent, in the season of waiting and anticipating this struggle is extra real, because, really? What would a perfect, sinless Savior want with filthy, disobedient me? What could possibly redeem me?
I know I’m not special in this way, I’m not alone. The Bible addresses shame so many times in too many ways for it to be simply a Sam problem.
There are a whole host of scriptures to choose from to meditate on, and I love this gem from Psalm 34 right now:
Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together.
I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him. (v. 3-8 NIV)
Jesus answers our fears with refuge and deliverance. He replaces our shame with radiance. He saves us out of His goodness, and we are blessed for it.
I’m convinced that when shame is what is ruling in our hearts, people will only see our bad decisions and sin. Shame makes us hide ourselves and makes it look like we are dishonest and covering things up.
But when it’s Christ’s love, God’s forgiveness, and confidence in our salvation that rule, people see freedom and peace that surpasses understanding, and it radiates from our faces.
If you’re struggling under the weight of shame and darkness this season, look to Him. He’s good. Look and let His goodness radiate from you.
Even if it’s not yet time for your deliverance, He will be your refuge. What is your favorite scripture to mediate on answer shame?