faith, girl stuff, loneliness, love, marriage, personal relationships, romantic relationships, sex

Gatsby, green, and me | a poem.

Looking back, all I can see Are the those two green towers And the way you looked at me. I remember The smell of Irish beer on your breath, The knowing smile on your face, And the boundaries we should have set. I jumped in recklessly, Your words echoing in my head. We dreamed so… Continue reading Gatsby, green, and me | a poem.

faith, holy yoga, marriage, ministry, trust

sam j, future R-HYI.

I took this photo a few months ago when I officially registered for Holy Yoga teacher training and could hardly believe it was real. I’ve been following the work of Holy Yoga Ministries for about 5 years, give or take, and have been hoping for this opportunity the whole time. There aren't many instructors within… Continue reading sam j, future R-HYI.

Christ, emotions, fear, love, marriage, personal relationships, romantic relationships, salvation, work

I’m a Christian, and a photographer, and would absolutely photograph a same-sex wedding.

I wrote this piece in May 2016, but never got around to publishing it. Which sucks because I spent a lot of time considering this topic. So here I am, a year and a half later, not even really a wedding photographer (semi-retired), and ready to publish. Figures. Oh, well. It's a long one, though,… Continue reading I’m a Christian, and a photographer, and would absolutely photograph a same-sex wedding.

anger, anxiety, emotions, faith, family, fear, loneliness, marriage, ministry, parenting, personal relationships, romantic relationships, sex, testimony

make a decision.

"You're always one decision away from a completely different life." I saw this a while ago and it's been floating around my mind for a bit. And just thinking in context, I have a few friends going through some very personal but very familiar stuff, and I'm just struck by just how absolutely true this… Continue reading make a decision.

emotions, family, fear, loneliness, marriage, personal relationships, trust

I’m good! It’s okay! I’m fine! 

I'm reading a book right now called Nothing To Prove by Jennie Allen and it's great. I'm sure I'll write about so much coming out of my heart because of this book in the near future. But right now, I've got to be real about something. Because Jennie talks a little bit about this in… Continue reading I’m good! It’s okay! I’m fine! 

anger, anxiety, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, marriage, peace, personal relationships, sex, testimony, trust, unbelief

life is short, but you can’t rush healing. 

I stopped my cousin mid-sentence yesterday because she said something that totally took me back. She was telling me about her plans for next week, and she said she'd be doing something on the first of September. And that the first of September is next Friday. I interrupted her to ask "how are we already… Continue reading life is short, but you can’t rush healing. 

Christ, emotions, love, marriage, personal relationships, romantic relationships, sex, trust, worth

you see me. | a poem.

Sweet and scared, You see me. You recognize me. I don't intimidate you with my needs. You don't turn away from my pain. You embrace me. You look at me and you see me. You see all of me. And because you do, it's not just imperfections you see. You bring out my beauty. Your… Continue reading you see me. | a poem.

anger, anxiety, Christ, emotions, family, fear, loneliness, marriage, ministry, personal relationships, salvation, satan, testimony, trust, unbelief

on hypocrites and Jesus.

I was talking with someone lately about Christian things, and nothing makes me feel more like a freaking hypocrite than giving godly advice, even if it's good advice. This sucks because a lot of the problems I've had in my recent Christian history is with hypocrites. I've let so many people come into my life… Continue reading on hypocrites and Jesus.

Christ, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, love, marriage, peace, sex, trust

beauty for ashes, when we’ve totally crashed and burned. 

To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory. (Isaiah 61:3 NLT) I love tree pose and I love trees.… Continue reading beauty for ashes, when we’ve totally crashed and burned. 

emotions, fear, marriage, personal relationships, romantic relationships, unbelief

divorce: it’s like seeing your new car everywhere. 

You know how it goes. You buy a new car you've barely seen, and suddenly, it's everywhere. Everyone has one.  This happened to me a few years ago. I bought a Ford Escape in a blue color that, honestly, I hated. But it was the more practical of the two SUV options I had in… Continue reading divorce: it’s like seeing your new car everywhere.