anxiety, Christ, emotions, fear, love, peace, trust, worth

beautiful things.

I brought this big fella out of storage and into the nook where I do yoga a little bit ago. It's a shitty mat job (I did it myself years ago without the proper equipment - it's sad) but I love him. I called him 'the bone daddy' after Jack Skellington form The Nightmare Before… Continue reading beautiful things.

faith, family, fear, parenting, personal relationships

thoughts about my first born on her 8th birthday. 

Can I be sappy for a minute, please? (Let's be real. I'm typing this whether you like it or not, with or without your permission). My sweet girl, my first born is 8 years old today and it's giving me all the feels.  I took this picture on her 6th birthday, 2 years ago today,… Continue reading thoughts about my first born on her 8th birthday. 

anger, anxiety, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, marriage, peace, personal relationships, sex, testimony, trust, unbelief

life is short, but you can’t rush healing. 

I stopped my cousin mid-sentence yesterday because she said something that totally took me back. She was telling me about her plans for next week, and she said she'd be doing something on the first of September. And that the first of September is next Friday. I interrupted her to ask "how are we already… Continue reading life is short, but you can’t rush healing. 

Christ, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, love, marriage, peace, sex, trust

beauty for ashes, when we’ve totally crashed and burned. 

To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory. (Isaiah 61:3 NLT) I love tree pose and I love trees.… Continue reading beauty for ashes, when we’ve totally crashed and burned. 

anxiety, Christ, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, trust, unbelief

tell me your story again. 

I've found that writing in the moment of a thought or a feeling has done me much better as of late than sitting on something to write about and work through later. So right now, I'm writing from the passenger seat of our family van on the way home from vacation.  We're in the rainy… Continue reading tell me your story again. 

fear, trust

we don’t want God, we want blessings.

In the musical, Children of Eden (while not completely Biblically accurate, still a beautiful show), the story of Creation and the Fall are depicted in Act 1. Eve was deceived and eats the fruit. She tricks Adam by making it into a juice and lying to him about what’s in it. God confronts them, but,… Continue reading we don’t want God, we want blessings.

emotions, personal relationships, romantic relationships, salvation

better than the best day of your life.

The morning of September 6, I literally decided that I was going to find a Psalm and read it. So, I flipped through and seemingly randomly selected Psalm 84. One particular verse stood out, it was Psalm 84:10: “Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper… Continue reading better than the best day of your life.

Christ, faith, peace, sex, testimony, trust, worth

sunlight buring at midnight.

Sometimes I sit and think about the way my life was, I don't know, 2 years ago. Boy, was I in a mess. The things I did back then were a result of years and years of being beaten down by one person and/or circumstance after another until I felt worthy of only men who… Continue reading sunlight buring at midnight.

Christ

I’ve got two words for you.

Normally, I like to sit down and write for a good while. I can be pretty long-winded; anywhere between 500 and 1,000+ words is probably my usual range. However, tonight as I sit an reflect on a few of todays events and conversations, my thoughts are much less complicated and I'm more certain than ever… Continue reading I’ve got two words for you.

anxiety, Christ, emotions, fear, love, peace, personal relationships, salvation, trust

stop whining.

Today, I had every intention on writing, but it wasn't about what I'm about to share with you now. I have a few things in the 'drafts' to work on, but God just kind of put me in my place a little, and since I love it so much when He does that (no sarcasm,… Continue reading stop whining.