anxiety, Christ, emotions, fear, love, peace, trust, worth

beautiful things.

I brought this big fella out of storage and into the nook where I do yoga a little bit ago. It's a shitty mat job (I did it myself years ago without the proper equipment - it's sad) but I love him. I called him 'the bone daddy' after Jack Skellington form The Nightmare Before… Continue reading beautiful things.

emotions, family, fear, loneliness, marriage, personal relationships, trust

I’m good! It’s okay! I’m fine! 

I'm reading a book right now called Nothing To Prove by Jennie Allen and it's great. I'm sure I'll write about so much coming out of my heart because of this book in the near future. But right now, I've got to be real about something. Because Jennie talks a little bit about this in… Continue reading I’m good! It’s okay! I’m fine! 

anger, anxiety, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, marriage, peace, personal relationships, sex, testimony, trust, unbelief

life is short, but you can’t rush healing. 

I stopped my cousin mid-sentence yesterday because she said something that totally took me back. She was telling me about her plans for next week, and she said she'd be doing something on the first of September. And that the first of September is next Friday. I interrupted her to ask "how are we already… Continue reading life is short, but you can’t rush healing. 

Christ, emotions, love, marriage, personal relationships, romantic relationships, sex, trust, worth

you see me. | a poem.

Sweet and scared, You see me. You recognize me. I don't intimidate you with my needs. You don't turn away from my pain. You embrace me. You look at me and you see me. You see all of me. And because you do, it's not just imperfections you see. You bring out my beauty. Your… Continue reading you see me. | a poem.

anger, anxiety, Christ, emotions, family, fear, loneliness, marriage, ministry, personal relationships, salvation, satan, testimony, trust, unbelief

on hypocrites and Jesus.

I was talking with someone lately about Christian things, and nothing makes me feel more like a freaking hypocrite than giving godly advice, even if it's good advice. This sucks because a lot of the problems I've had in my recent Christian history is with hypocrites. I've let so many people come into my life… Continue reading on hypocrites and Jesus.

Christ, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, love, marriage, peace, sex, trust

beauty for ashes, when we’ve totally crashed and burned. 

To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory. (Isaiah 61:3 NLT) I love tree pose and I love trees.… Continue reading beauty for ashes, when we’ve totally crashed and burned. 

Christ, love, salvation

tell me what you want, what you really, really want.

Coming up on the Christmas season, there’s a lot of talk about gifts. People everywhere are talking about wish lists and presents and wants and “needs” (I’ll use that term loosely haha). Something God has been working on my heart lately has to do with His role as a provider, or a gift-giver, if you… Continue reading tell me what you want, what you really, really want.

Christ, emotions, faith, satan, trust, unbelief

confession: I used to be an atheist.

Confession: I used to be an atheist. For a while there, I claimed to be an “agnostic” because it sounded so much nicer… but truth be told, I was a full-blown atheist. I believe in no heaven, no hell. I believed there was no God, no devil. There was only me and the people around… Continue reading confession: I used to be an atheist.

anger, Christ, emotions, love, personal relationships

what is love?

Can true love exist without sacrifice? The devotional I’m working through right now, 30 Words Book by Jarrid Wilson, asked me this question today, but it’s something I’ve long pondered in a few different forms. And the more I think and pray about it, the more I believe that, no – TRUE love cannot exist… Continue reading what is love?

anger, anxiety, Christ, emotions, faith, fear, loneliness, love, personal relationships, trust

fairytales do exist.

Having existed for many a year living OF the world, and just about a year and a half trying to just be IN it, I've experienced a lot of things. For a number of months before I was saved, I was "dating" and honestly, the only good thing I can say about it is that… Continue reading fairytales do exist.